ARGH, why do I have to sabo myself? I'm really stupid for doing that. Just because I want to clear up somethings for myself, I ended up bombing myself in the face and caused even more problems for me.
I will revert to my old self. I will uphold my principle once more. I will not bomb myself in the face. The eyes shall see nothing. Anything that does not concern me or involve me, I will not be part of it. No helping, no interfering. That is what I am and will be onwards.